Jeronimo!!!

Another has passed and another one enters, but not without new hopes and dreams. Somehow that little qoute is my favorite one and my original one, its always stuck in my head but then fills me with courage and great anticipation for each new day or week.

Last week was very tiring, job was very busy and we really had lots and lots of work, although I do find it fun, when the going gets tough, the more fun it is for me. Perhaps its because challenges drives me and the adrenaline that comes with it keeps me well moving at a faster pace. Its not about proving I’m better or just want to finish ahead of everyone, its jsut that I want to have the work done as soon as possible, the smoother it is the better.

What else, had good fun hanging out with my friends over the weekend. Zaq’s bday party was good, and then the proceeding clubbing was good(went to an Irish pub, the age group was kinda old and and the music well hehehe, I don’t know it was a mixture of old 90’s to the ones I can’t even dance too wierd haha. Then since every bar here closes at 2, we had to have more, so we drank some more and just had fun kicking back and chilling. Karts, hope you had a great time.

May has passed on us by, June has come and go, and now we are in the month of July, and in the middle of the year. Ok, I guess you all know that, and think (tch!) just when I have seen it all, I see some stupid random posts like this, well guess what you haven’t seen everything yet, ask yourself this question, have you seen a man lick a dog’s ass? No, you haven’t! So there yu haven’t seen everything yet, haha, I win! Well enough of the that and let’s get down to business.

First my thoughts, can’t believe that it has been already a month since I last visited Philippines, seems only like a day ago when I was there and just enjoying every bit of it. But then I go about reading the newspaper and I see this, the president saying sorry to the public and then the people wanting her to resign. Seriously I don’t know who to side with this one, I can go with the president thinking its the best interest of the country to let her finish her term and just stop destabilizing the damn economy, the country is going nowhere with all these events happening every year, I mean haven’t we learned anything at all??? If Poe won, damn it would have been a repeat of Erap and then he would have passed away, leaving the country again fighting for who would take this seat and so on. Now with the people’s side, I understand that they want honestly and integrity, and so far the trust of the people has been shaken once again. tsk tsk tsk, Lord knows what will happen in the coming weeks and I pray it’ll be smooth and finally please let all the shenanigans be gone and progress be served. Enough politics

I was in san francisco lately, had much fun really, but the ba part was traffic, never thought I would sit in the car for 10 hours! My ass felt like it was already merging with the seat, now thats not good. But at least when we got there ah finally! thanks for taking us around ate tess and kuya caloy. Karts and Jo, at least nag sama sama tayo ulit and we had fun, but it won’t stop there naman. We are here might as well, enjoy every minute of it. Then cam 4th of July, we had a reunion in my cousin’s house and it was a blast, bbq was great, couldn’t exactly remember how many I ate, but I think it would be more than my set of fingers. Sarap eh! Then came out little fireworks, it was good to see my two nieces just watching in awe of what were they seeing, but their world has just begun and they would learn more each day of what it really is like, its up to us to make it better as much as we could.

Speaking of young, I try to recall my earliest memory, and I always go back to the day I first felt alive and conscous with my world and that was around age of 5. I don’t know why I can’t recall anything earlier than that, but it seems like that was the beginning of my life, like that was the first ever bookmarked in my memory. Alien kaya ako hahaha! But then I would look at my baby pictures and I would see glimpses and say oh ok I think I remember this, but then imagination sets in, so is it real then? How about you, what was your earliest memory in life??

Its funny the way life works sometimes, it goes on like this, when you want something so bad, even take desperate measures to get it, you don’t get it in spite of all the effort and time you spend getting, but then just when you don’t want it anymore, just when you have had enough, it all comes to you and just when you least expect it. Ironic noh? Relative to love, its probably the same thing, but with love its all about the right timing, the right place and the right scenario, when everything just falls into place. I was just watching Hitch and these thoughts suddenly came racing through my mind. Its a good movie, although cliche’d to some degree, but the moral lesson is that, even though we think we know all about love and life, when it happens to us, all of a sudden we are back to square one, no matter how good you are, everyone goes through the same stages all over again. Now the question is, how will it end?

Its been 3 weeks now, and still my sleeping pattern is messed up, jet lag I still have and it sucks. Sometimes I would just feel so tired, then I would feel so energized the next. Hopefully I’d get back to the normal pattern soon, but all else I miss everyone back in the philippines, I miss Boracay, its just beautiful. And I swear one day, once I have enough money, I will buy a house there if not there, then Tagaytay. its sad for me cause I dont know when will I see everyone again, hoping its soon. I just miss everything. Take care and God bless everyone.

Back to Life, back to reality, back in US of A. Hhhmm, what to describe my 3 weeks of vacation: Great, Inspiring, energizing, mezmerizing, happy, bonding, partying, reflecting and anything that would be assciated with anything positive or good. It has been really satisfying in a sense I really didn’t want it to end, but the unfortunate thing is all good things must come to an end. And it saddens me that it did and it came all too fast. First thing I know I was still in the first day of my vacation, trying to figure out a way to schedule everything, next thing I know I’m back at the airport with tears running down my cheek. It was heartwarming to see everyone’s faces again, and it was heartbreaking to leave everyone again, especially when you love and care for them so much. Much harder was the fact that my nephews and nieces cried out like I have never seen them before, which just made my heart softer and literally made me cry, hard for me to wake up in the morning and not see them like I used to the past three weeks. My sister, dad, mommy, jp, kuya sean adn family and kuya sem and family, thanks for everything, I really love you guys and miss you guys soooo much. If only things were different. Each day was something different, enjoyed waking up in the morning and watching the basketball games, the sago drinks and all. the star wars movie we watched, etc, just about everything I could ask for was granted. I will very much miss the everyday occurance we all shared, that is just something that is always in memory that will be cherished.
The Aranas family, thank you for taking the time and effort to take us out, and I really enjoyed being around with you guys. Subic was the best part, especially the partying, kuya Jay, we bonded and just enjoyed outselves till the morning that night, I will never forget those two days, the best talga. To the rest, thank you thank you, kya ted the basketball, ate loudette for taking time out of job and the kids for entertaining us haha. Tita lita for the great food, tito jess, nina and kuya jon, thank you thank you
The Barretto family, first Kuya topher and family, I miss you guys so much, we have been together for the past two months and a half so its hard not seeing you guys on a daily basis, I really enjoyed my time with you guys, always laughing and all the prayers we did. Never a dull moment and the hair changed in me hahaha. Wish we could all see each other again soon. Kuya Maddy and family, ate linette, kuya bong and family, kuya al and family, thank you thank you so much talga. My stay was really memorable for all the adventures, and bonding. Thanks talga.
And lastly but not least, thanks to you, my heart trembles whenever I think of you, my sings whenever I see you smile, and the my heart just smiles whenever I look at you. I wished there were more time, but  alas it just had to be at that time, the chance meeting that I will forever think perhaps that was the moment my life changed. Things just seemed a little differnt, like the world was so good, like the world was wonderful, I think of all of that because of you. I only wish that there would be more in store in the future. I would be patient, and I’d believe if we were meant to be, thne we are meant to be, even if we are thousands of miles apart. But its good to know that whenever I would sleep at night, the last thing on my mind is You. And the dream starts….

What the title says hehe, I’ll be taking a vacation in the island of the Philippines!!! Can’t wait to see everyone’s faces again and finally be able to see the famed beach Boracay! Its been looooooong overdue, but its close I can almost feel the fine sands of Boracary, supposedly the smoothest and whitest among white of the sand beaches of the world. I was really hoping that my vacation would be a more than three weeks, as I really want to visit all the great places that Philippines has to offer, through the Rated K show, they are able to show some of the finest places Philippines has to offer and somehow, someday I hope to see them all. I still dream that one day, I would be able to travel around the world and see all the beautiful places out there, perhaps it’ll come, just when the right time hits.

Hhmm, among other things, I’ve been writing this song for a while now, hopefully I could finish it soon, its been on top of my head so I just decided to write it down. Hopefully once I finish it I could give it to my cousin’s band and they would be able to make a hit out of it haha. 

Now that picture on that side, we are literally the beach boys hahaha, well it was fun, I emailed all the pictures to all the people close to my heart, hopefully you guys enjoyed viewing it:-) Loved that day, its great to get away from all the city life and just relax, be with the family and enjoy a nice weather in the beach with the nothing but relaxation in your mind.

I like my horoscope reading today, says about dreams and how we dream to live. And lately, since I have been sleeping pretty much 70% of the time to recover and get better, dreams is all I have got and have been experiencing all over. Although, there has been one particular dream that has been repeating or has the same theme to it, right now it just escapes my mind at what it was again. But one dream sequence I remember is going to Philippines and going to the beach, and meeting a bunch of new people, nothing strange about it, just kicking back, enjoying each other’s company until the night doominates the day and then I wake up, wonder what happened next?! Perhaps there would be a continuiation later on, but I doubt it, since that is rare and it would only happen when you, or I woke up and instantly sleep again.

But what are dreams really? Are they a form of desire? Past life? A resonance? Inner spirit and mind talking to our feelings? Prophecy? A vision of the future? An answer? Just what is it? There have been explainations to it, best by sigmund Freud, but even he I think don’t really understand what dreams are for, perhaps one day there would be someone that would think hard enough and dream hard enough to know, but for now, I will sleep and dream…

Question for you, what was your favorite and wierdest dream ever?

Shit, I haven’t been this sick since uuuuuhhhh I dont know, but seriously this one just has bad timing written all over it sigh. But then what can I do, my body has just gave in and its time to re-energize and refresh again. I guess work, touring around, staying up to late(work and watching Pope’s funeral), changing weather, etc has caught up to me and now I’m feeling the effects. Friday was the worst day too, good thing I had enough energy to muster to work that day, called in sick but boss called if I could go to work since we were really short and I swear there were a few moments there when I almost passed out, but I didn’t want to let everyone down and had to contribute a little bit of my own. Fortunately for me, I got through the night and went home safe and sound. Thank you God for protecting me that night, I could have seriously harmed myself, by driving sick but I got through.

The rest of this blog here, would be dedicated to you, Pope John Paul II, you have given us inspiration and you served until the end. Felt like a part of me was lost when you passed away, but that comes with familiarity knowing you have been a part of our lives. But now that you are gone, you left us with a grief and question, who will ever take your place, but then a part of us is happy knowing you will suffer no more pain, you are now in a better place. Its been nice knowing you and I still remember seeing you in person way back in World Youth Day in Philippines, you were so dedicated and had that loving presence about you. For that one day, everyone in the Philippines was united and the theme was for everyone. Wish everyday was like that, perhaps if I wish hard enough it will, but in God’s will, everything will be through His plans…God Bless everyone.

Hehehe, whew looking for deals and promos for minivans for the weekend gave me a huge headache!!! Good thing I had my cousin to help me out and look for deals, thanks Ri! Well, I don’t know how many times I’ve said this but time really goes by so fast, its already thursday and tomorrow will be April already. One more month and I will be in Philippines for my vacation, yahoo!! Can’t wait to go to Boracay, its been a long overdue, but I’m finally going to see the famed beach. Now the hard part is the pasalubongs, and I’m really not good at that, so if I ever I leave someone out, sorry:-D But for sure, I want to give to all my pamangkins and especially my inaanak(s). Ok, my head really hurts so I’ll leave this one for now. God Bless

Its Good Friday today and I just can’t believe what just happened to me.  I think God was just telling me, letting me know that He is there again and talking to my heart. At first it started out just like any regular day, but as we watched Passion of the Christ, my heart started to hurt again, seeing as to how Jesus went through all the pain for us. The suffering was just to much to bear, what more that He endured it all on His own. Now came 3 o’ clock, and we were about to pray the rosary when I went to my room to get my rosary. My computer which has a program that changes my wallpaper every 4 hours, did its purpose but this time, it really took me by surprise. It changed wallpaper at exactly 3 o clock and the wallpaper it put up was Jesus’ picture in the cross with the words "Dying to know you…" Naturally I was taken aback, we were praying the rosary and I was in tears thinking, "Jesus, you are talking to me, and I would like nothing in world but to know you, to be with you and to hug you at the very moment." On a god friday, on 3 o clock, with Jesus on the cross picture, with the word "Dying to know you.." Its not the obvious but rather the meaning of it all. He is always there for us, just find it in our heart, and we will know the meaning.

I always remember the time you sheltered me from harm, when I should have been in the hospital at the moment, yet you shielded me and kept me from sustaining damage in my back and head, thank you. From the time you used me to meet that elderly woman who needed food, it made her day as well as mine, thank you. From the time I saw the sun danced before my very eyes, I thank you. As you go back up in heaven and back again, take all my pain, take all anger, take all fears and I give it all to You. Amen

God Bless everyone, have a good lenten season.

Well, to start things off, I can’t believe this has happened again, I mean wow, how is it that another school shooting has happened? The first time we should have learned but then again whose to say it can be prevented since it was totally unexpected and in a town that would say be unlikely of all places. I feel for the kids, I mean school is supposed to be  safe haven, a place to learn, a place to feel camaraderie and refuge per se. But no, times has changed, its like school is just a place now, the meaning has been lost and in worse circumstances, the shooting. I can’t think of anything to scare the shit out of me, if I was in their place. Just think about it, you are young, then you are just in a classroom totally oblivious to what is happening outside the school since your only concern is to study and be the best you can be. Then all of a sudden, you hear gunshots, bodies are flying, the doors are locked, the gunman tries to get in, if successful, what do you do? And in the those people that saw their fellow classmates die in front of them, this experience is even more traumatic. Would they even care to go back to that place anymore? I pray for them…

Speaking of kids today, they are either lucky or unlucky for what kind of toys they have today, so I guess depends on the kind of people you ask. As for me, I think they are unlucky, because the kind of toys they have nowadays takes awy the fun in playing with other people and developing that sense of teamwork and care for one another. Say the game "shato", "taguan chinelas", "taguan" and among others. I even enjoy remembering how we used to make bubbles from gumamela and soap haha. Nowadays, they have PSPs, Ipods, high tech gadgets, cellphones for even kids yikes!!! All very expensive too. That chance for Imagination has been taken away from them, that chance on being creative has been robbed, at least that is what I think. Oh well, that is keeping up with the times and times has changed alot. However, I think it also depends on how the parents let the kids grow, so that is another side of growing up:-)

Question for the day, what is the most memorable childhood memory you have?