Like a roller coaster
Yesterday was just tough, never imagined myself having that kind of day. First of was traffic, yes it was clogged so in spite of that, I still kept my cool. Then of the office I go, once I get there, we have a meeting and bad news is delivered, at first I was upset because I totally blamed myself for the mistakes, so the whole day I was just quiet and just doing my usual thing, instead of my usual self which is lighting up everyone and just generally giving eveyrone a good time. So my lead, took notice and talked to me, she told me that "its not my fault and that I shouldn’t blame myself squarely, because we were a team and each and one of us is responsible." I guess when she told me that, it gave me a sense of relief. And thanks to a friend of mine, whom I think God used to help me cheer up, thank you, I won’t mention her name, but you really gave me smile during the day. I was so annoying to you, yet you kept up hahaha. thank you, though I didn’t meet "Sam" like you promised, my eyes still hurt and feel like vomiting hahaha. But don’t worry I prayed for your intentions.
After work, yes traffic as usual, but I just thought to myself, well "I’m now going that one place where I can just be at peace." I prayed for what seemed like an eternity, just talking to Him, thanking things could have been worse, and praying for a better tomorrow. Lord, sometimes I feel like I traverse this road, feeling lost, feeling lonely, lacking inspiration, feeling confused because I can’t please everyone, if only I could split myself up to a million pieces but I can’t, but somehow you make it all work out, in your mysterious will, I somehow find my way, and can’t help but feel inspired. Like today, I woke up feeling great, and come afternoon, my family and I just watched my niece enjoy herself in the pool, she was just having a blast, trying to wet me in the process(which she was successful at) and little moments like that, that define her time and our family memories. The weather is cooperative today too, not scorching but actually cool. Thank you God for leading me that path, I myself can’t wait for september seattle conference, I cn’t wait to meet other people of the same interests and allow myself to share my experience and faith which is the most important thing to me. And maybe, just maybe, I find what I have been looking for….
Faithful Father
(Brian Doerksen)
Father, I can’t explain this kind of love
This kind of grace
I know I still break Your heart
And yet You run to welcome me
This is my song of praise to You
For who You are and all that You do
From the moment my life began
You have been faithful
Father, I love the way You hold me close
And say my name
I know when my life is through
My heart will find its home in You
This is my song of praise to You
For who You are and all that You do
From the moment my life began
You have been faithful
You will be faithful
Forever faithful
This is our song of praise to You
For who You are and all that You do
From before the world began
You have been faithful
You will be faithful
Forever faithful
